Have you ever felt like you were all worn out and used up to the point where your give a damn has actually got up and left?
Here lately I am getting to the point where I am starting to not care about anything that used to mean so much to me. I have been so depressed all summer long and it is getting worse by the day. It is getting to the point where I can not even have a peaceful evening at home just watching tv alone with my thoughts. I am so tired of everyone trying to drag me into other peoples drama. I was nearly asleep tonight when the phone rang. I was only on the phone for a few minutes when a second call came in over top the first one. The ironic thing is none of this really has anything to do with me. I wish people would just learn how to solve some of their own problems.
It has been a long depressing summer, and tonight did not help. I just loveeeeeee how people make excuses for other peoples behavior and their not doing what they should be doing.
Someone had a sign up on their status one time it said NEVER PUSH A LOYAL PERSON UNTILL THEY NO LONGER GIVE A DAMN. I think this is good advice. I myself am very loyal to my friends, but this summer has taken a toll on me it started in March when someone I cared a lot about just disappeared from my life without a good bye. It went down hill from there a large part of my support net has dropped out of me this summer, and I have been trying to hold things together, but I feel like everything is unraveling and I am falling apart. I have done my best all summer to hold everyone and everything together I just wonder if there will be anyone there to put me back together when there is nothing left of me but rags.