lol You ever have one of those days? I was nearly done writing a new entry when I bumped something I still do not know what and deleted the whole entry. I am a big believer in fate and things happening for a reason, so I will not be rewriting what I had in the one that got deleted by accident. Instead lets talk about fate. I believe everything good or bad happens for a reason. I will give you and example. I had some friends when I was about 13 a mom a dad and 2 sons. I said to the dad one day about when was he going to get the boys the little sister his wife always wanted a little girl. He said he was not that he was stopping with the 2 boys. Less then a year later their oldest son was killed when he was struck by a car on the road in front of their home. It was a very sad thing. He was so young, but I believe everything happens for a reason. After his death they went on to have 2 more little boys and the little girl his wife wanted. I honestly believe had both of the first 2 boys lived the other 3 children would never have been born. The second child was a baby when his brother got killed, and the hardest thing for me was the last time I saw him he had grown to look just like his dead brother but with slightly lighter hair.
When I was less then 2 years old I nearly choked to death on a life saver DO NOT LET ANYONE TELL YOU, YOU CAN NOT CHOKE ON THEM I DID IT. It was in the days before the Heimlich maneuver was invented. I am told they had me turned upside down pounding me on my back and I was turning blue by the time they got it knocked out of my throat. I was not meant to die that day. (Important thing to remember if you are choking or going to choke DO NOT PANIC you panic and your throat will close up on you. but if you do not panic you can swallow again and usually get what ever it is down far enough it will not obstruct you breathing.) I think I was saved that day so I could save another. When I was 13 or 14 I was playing near a road with a bunch of the neighborhood kids. The road was not a good one. We had a lot of fast moving traffic on it. I looked up and saw a car dropping down the hill fast. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Sandy my neighbors 3 year old daughter standing in the road not moving as the car barreled down on her. Without even thinking I jumped out grabbed her and jerked her off the road just in time to feel the air from the car speed past us. My mom yelled at me. She said Janie you could have got killed I answered back mom if I had not done what I did Sandy WOULD HAVE BEEN KILLED. Mom did not say anything more to me about it. I really believe I was saved from choking to death when I was a child so I could save Sandy later in life. Needless to say that put an end to us playing along side the road. lol How ironic is it that that was the same road that took little Ronnie's life only about a year later. I had moved away when Ronnie died.
What eats at me is I know without a doubt had I not moved away Ronnie would not have died that day. It still eats at me to this day if I see a child on the street I get scared it is going to get hit. My mom told me he was meant to die by being hit by a car, because his own dad nearly backed over him one day. Ronnie had followed Ron out to the car when he was leaving for work and Ron did not see him, thank God my dad did and he yelled across to Ron's mom who was coming out of the garage to stop Ron that Ronnie was behind the car. So the next time you get all worked up about something bad that happens just tell yourself there is a bigger plan you do not know about and everything happens for a reason no matter how bad it seems at the time.
