I was just setting here thinking about how selfish I am. 
And wondering if there is ever a time when it is ok to be a little selfish? Today is my 58th birthday and it was feeling like a special birthday to me because I was born in 1958 not everyone gets to be the same age as the year they were born 
. I was looking forward to something I thought was a sure thing the shamrock shake my youngest niece gets me every year for my birthday. I was also looking forward to seeing my niece she has been really busy and I had not seen her in a couple months. When my brother called to wish me a happy birthday he told me my niece had just got out of the hospital from having surgery I did not even know she needed it. I was first upset and worried about my niece she is like a daughter to me, and then I got to thinking with her ill I would not get my shake. I realized nearly immediately how selfish I was being and I kind of hate myself for it, but there is a part of me that is like a little kid pouting because it is my birthday one that I felt was very special and now I will not get something I really wanted today.
The adult me realizes I am being childish and should be more concerned about my niece then I am my silly wants, but the child inside me knows birthdays only come once a year and when that clock strikes midnight they are gone for another whole year. And this particular birthday is unlike all the rest. Guess that is what happens when you get your hopes up they are destine to fall. Now on top of that I feel bad about being selfish in thinking about myself instead of my niece's health. I love her so much and if anything happened to her I do not know what I would do.
So I guess the real question here is does anyone ever have the right to be selfish of any reason?
