Have you ever noticed that the differences between people and how they see things can sometimes drive friendships apart. Something happened to me yesterday a very good friend told something I trusted him not to tell. It hurt me deeply and now people that know about it are acting like it is not big thing. To me it is a huge thing. I do not trust easily, and when I do get the courage to trust someone it seems they always end up letting me down. I do not know maybe I expect to much. I just want to know when trust was something too much to expect from a friend.
I am sure I will forgive my friend he apologized and I always forgive people that apologize . I learned how to forgive from one of my exes. Forgetting and learning to trust again will take more time. It does not help that I feel like some of my other friends think I should just forget what he did. Forgiving is easy forgetting is nearly impossible for me. It takes me a long time and much thinking to get past being betrayed. I believe he is sorry, but he still will not give me the one thing I need to make it all go away in my head. I need the real reason he did it. Six years I knew him and I never one time had to worry he would ever tell something I told him not to UNTILL NOW. People often see things differently and this differences in thought processes often makes space between people who were once close friends. You all bare with me while I try to get my head straight.
