I was talking to my sister tonight and it may be a lonelier then usual Christmas this year 
None of us are doing great health wise. My oldest sister's shingles are acting up my next sister is recovering from pancreatitis, my older brother just had quadruple bypass and I have only been out of the hospital about 3 weeks myself/ My anxiety has been on overdrive. My younger brother says he is ok but fact is I think more sleep would do him some good. His father in law is in the hospital and may need surgery, and his daughter's car was hit by a deer the other night. If you have ever had a car hit by a deer you know for something that looks so frail their bones must be made of iron, because they do a lot of damage to cars. My poor little brother is running himself ragged . I will admit I really appreciated him being there the night I was admitted to the hospital, but I also felt bad he needed sleep and he was not getting it. I am worried his health may suffer because he is trying to be all things to everyone. I love him but he is not invincible.
It looks like there will be no Christmas gathering this year. That means I may not see some of my family till next year. Christmas day is always lonely for me I have no family living with me, but without the gathering it will be more lonely then usual. Everyone else has at least one other family member that will be with them on Christmas day. I have missed so much in my life mainly because of my health issues. I hope we will be able to figure out a way to get together for Christmas ,but the fact is I am not counting on it. I am going to take a page out of Ben Franklins book I am going to expect the worst and be delightfully surprised if the best happens.
