People have been telling me for years I need to take time for me. Well I have thought a lot about it and I think I need to do just that, so I will be taking a few days of me time. Time to do what I want when I want, Time to spend in my real world, time to think about why my virtual world is no longer making me as happy as it once did. I once knew a girl who's real name was Heather. I say it that way because I myself have been known to use the name Heather in one of my screen names. The real Heather was a lot like me, people with problems were attracted to her, because she would try to help them. She would disappear from the net for days at a time. I one time asked her why she did that and she said if she did not people would keep taking and taking till there was nothing left of her to give. She said she and I were a lot alike and I should learn to do the same thing.
My father instilled in me a strong sense of commitment. He said if I took on a job I should finish it that is why I find it hard to walk away even when I am being ripped apart mentally. Someone said something to me today and the more I thought about it the more I know she was right. She asked me why I try to help people when I get kicked in the teeth if I do. I need to think about this, and I need to think about my health and my desires for the future. If you do not see me do not worry about me, and if you do see me on one of my other ids Please leave me alone, unless I speak to you first.
