As I sit here crying trying to type, this with both hands hurting so bad I can hardly move them and my emotions so raw I can hardly think straight, I wonder what hurts worse the physical pain we inflict on our bodies or the emotional pain others inflict on our soles.
I have been trying to get things done with my hands, right arm, and legs all hurting for days. Typing with 2 sore thumbs is no easy task. The doctor wants me to lose weight and he is right, but that is easier said then done with arthritis in your left knee and ankle. We have had a lot of rain and cool weather here this summer so it has been acting up quite a bit. I know I need to lose weight but how when I can not get active and I have been depressed all summer. I do not know how many of you have ever been really depressed but I can tell you when you are you do not want to do anything. All I did most of the summer was lay around on the couch and watch sleep.
I took on the responsibility of helping run an on line pool lg and I knew part of the summer would be hard, but I was expecting it to let up some by now. It has not and the stress is getting to me. It does not help that in March someone very special to me just up and disappeared from my life without a word and I have not recovered from that yet. Just one simple good bye would have helped me move on so much easier, but it did not happen.
Now I am arguing with a friend on messenger because he made and jerk of himself tonight. Seriously what is wrong with these guys these days. Most of them are bigger babies them actualy babies. I am getting too old to be a baby sitter for a bunch of middle aged guys.
